Hiatus

[Llau]

I was thinking about deleting my account here too be honest, like how I deleted a couple of my forums already, but ehhh...still need somewhere to go and write with others. So, might as well keep my account here. After all, I always seem to return anyway. Going on a hiatus is better, and I just wanted to inform everyone that I won't be able to post for a while. For how long? I'm not sure. You'll know when I do return to posting, but just don't expect it to be quick. 

I'm not motivated at all, which my no motivation is pretty much caused by the depression I'm having due to my health issues (My IBS...can control it, but can't cure it, and anything can set it off at any time), and whatever it is that's causing me to pass out, or feel like I'm going to pass out...which can be scary, and I can't go to the doctor to find out what's wrong with why I have the Vasovagal syncope problem (my mom explained this to me since she works at an eye doctor office, because I nearly passed out during this one test the doctor did on my eyes, which happens to others who are prone to it). I would love to stop passing out after standing for a certain amount of time...which isn't very long.

Both of these problems I'm very pissed off about, but they have also put me back into my depression, and it's very tiring to me. Having no motivation is effecting my desire to write and draw; and effecting me in other places that I'm trying to keep going in. The only thing I'm really doing is playing video games...in fact, if I didn't play video games, I think I would be far worse than what I'm feeling right now.

In closing...I won't be posting and I apologize to those who I have been interacting with in the RP threads, but my well being is more important to me right now...my hobbies tend to not be so important. Saying this...I can still help around, answering questions when I can. If anyone has questions about ONI, feel free to pm me. I'll be happy to help or try to.  

- Llau

[Faclan]

Alright Sheep, hope you feel better all over and the break goes well for you <3 .

Will be on steam or skype if wana chat and I think we are all hoping for the best for you.

[Cabel]

I hope you can get things squared away, Llau, and can find that focus again. It's annoying, to say the least when you can't find anything to focus on or have any motivation.

[Guardian Cat of Yappa's]

I hope your adversities you face aren't too difficult for you to handle mama sheep, we'll be here when the day is done and the wolves are slayed!

[BasedGoody]

The squad has your back if you ever need us Llau

[Llau]

Thanks, guys. I appreciate your kind words.

[LaxKnight]

I wish you the best of luck with your problems and I hope you get inspired again. However if you want to play video games with someone you can always hit me up on Steam or play some Xbox.

[Cabel]

Mar 21, 2016 12:01:43 GMT -6 Llau said:

Thanks, guys. I appreciate your kind words.

You're more than welcome, Llau. True friends are those that stick with you, and I honestly can't think of better friends than here. The least you can do is to heal physically, mentally, emotionally...that's all we...no, anyone can ask.

An old literature professor once told me that writing isn't a science. It isn't. It's who and what we are. Find your muse again, and heal. We'll be here, through rain, sleet and snow...no wait, that's the Motto of the Post Office. We'll be here and if you need to talk, or if you want to talk about anything, we'll listen.

[Seraph]

Just don't be a stranger, eh? Hearts go with you.

[Deleted]

Do what you must, and be safe. We care about you here and please, if you need anything just ask and we can try and provide.

[SPARTAN-A120]

We'll be waiting. If you need anything, you know where to find me. May fate work in your favor and your adversities be triumphed. 

[David]

Not unexpected. From what I was able to deduce from our Skype conversations, I thought this may be the case.

Llau, What makes a website a good place, Isn't the amount posted, Its not the presence, Its who you are to us. We have had our share of differences in the past. Some worse than others. We fought over certain things. But we came back and conquered it.

Sickness is hard. I myself have difficulties with depression and sickness. I can relate to your situation, But I won't say that I know how you feel. Only you can know that. But know this. We are all here. Everyone. You have cultivated a warm, friendly presence on this site that all of us like. You may not think so, But all of us here, Are here for you, Whether its a kind word, Or its listening to whatever is wrong. We stand by you, Whenever you are down and we will help you back up.

So. Llau. Take the time you need. We will still be here for you when you come back. As much as you may not think it, We are all here for you. Like family. All of us are connected. So please. Go and relax, get better, Do whatever you need to do to regain your equilibrium and come back when you feel it is right.

You have our support and love.

Dave

[Llau]

Thank you, guys. I really do mean it when I say that I do appreciate all of your kind words. When you're depressed due to whatever reason, it isn't fun, and it's not cute. It's pretty much the worse thing you can have, next to having something physically wrong with you, and I've suffered from depression off and on throughout my life, since high school. Because it's either, you feel that you're being punished for some reason, or you think you're worthless and a waste of time. So, hearing or reading all of this support is something I really needed to hear right now. My folks are being supportive as well, but it's also nice to have support from you guys. So, again, thank you.