Post by Llau on May 11, 2016 12:48:52 GMT -6
Well, the break was kinda alright, I guess. Still not feeling 100%, but still, better than I was mentally and physically. Though, I really wish my IBS would go away completely, but I know it won't. I just have to be careful, and continue to scratch off the foods I used to be able to eat, but can no longer do so. And by that, I mean learning it the hard way because there's no other way truly knowing other than "Well, I don't think I should eat that." I want to know if I can or not, so I have to eat it. I'm pretty stubborn like that anyway...I just hate the results. Severe stomach pains isn't fun...especially when it makes you sick enough to puke, and feel like puking more than once (and no, you don't feel better after...it only makes you feel even worse), and having to be in 12+ hours of agony because you feel that way, and you can't take any pain meds because you'll end up puking if anything is introduced into your stomach during that time. Sometimes I can, and then in an hour, it'll relax, and I can sleep. Not only that...if it gets that bad, my temperature rises, in which I feel like I'm going to pass out, unless I keep a cold pack behind my neck to keep my core temperature cool enough...which thankfully works. Then wondering if I should go to the hospital if the pain lasted more than 12 hours. Thankfully last Friday it didn't...which was when I learned I can't eat kale anymore...or any type of leafy greens like it. The only way I can is if it's a smoothie or as juice.
I'm drinking the juice and smoothies because they are making me feel better...as in, I've been feeling less of the passing out feeling - I think I've mentioned this in my farewell thread I made a while back. I don't remember. Anyway, if I haven't, I basically have vaselvagol syndrome. It's a sudden drop in heart rate and blood pressure leading to fainting, often in reaction to a stressful trigger. In my case, it's extreme heat, standing up for a certain period of times, lack of sleep, or lack of eating (don't skip eating a meal guys). Low blood sugar is often why too...hence, not skipping my meals and little light snacks each day. I'm also trying to exercise more....depression makes this part really fucking hard, but I'm trying. A little each day is good enough. Same can be said about writing a little each day, which I've taken advice from another writer who suffers from chronic depression, and writing a little bit every day. Sometimes I don't, but I'm hoping to increase how much I do write, as well as everything else, so I can eventually get back into the other things I love, other than gaming.
So, I guess I can say I'm back. Will I participate in M9 when the time comes? Probably not. Will I return to the side rp's I was in? Maybe. I can't say for sure, but...eventually. It doesn't take long for me to be motivated to write again, especially around you guys. I'm hoping I'll become motivated this time around. So, here's hoping. o/
I'm drinking the juice and smoothies because they are making me feel better...as in, I've been feeling less of the passing out feeling - I think I've mentioned this in my farewell thread I made a while back. I don't remember. Anyway, if I haven't, I basically have vaselvagol syndrome. It's a sudden drop in heart rate and blood pressure leading to fainting, often in reaction to a stressful trigger. In my case, it's extreme heat, standing up for a certain period of times, lack of sleep, or lack of eating (don't skip eating a meal guys). Low blood sugar is often why too...hence, not skipping my meals and little light snacks each day. I'm also trying to exercise more....depression makes this part really fucking hard, but I'm trying. A little each day is good enough. Same can be said about writing a little each day, which I've taken advice from another writer who suffers from chronic depression, and writing a little bit every day. Sometimes I don't, but I'm hoping to increase how much I do write, as well as everything else, so I can eventually get back into the other things I love, other than gaming.
So, I guess I can say I'm back. Will I participate in M9 when the time comes? Probably not. Will I return to the side rp's I was in? Maybe. I can't say for sure, but...eventually. It doesn't take long for me to be motivated to write again, especially around you guys. I'm hoping I'll become motivated this time around. So, here's hoping. o/
